siang ronggeng , malam sedih tapi happy

CHAPTER ONE : siang ahad aku keluar ronggeng dgn seha and lily :) haha best gila . i never felt so happy dgn my friends after break up with indera . kesian kan ? haa , no need . i must get used to it lah bcoz mmg dia bukan untuk aku pun . cewahhh :p dah dah . nak cerita dulu psl ronggeng dgn dua perempuan ni . konon-konon keluar nak buat kerja lah , padahal .. haha i never felt so close dgn lily ni untill hari ahad hari tu . dulu aku pernah juga kenal dgn dia , tapi tak lah serapat yang aku sangka kan :) haha she is such a nice girl . understanding pulak tu ! uwahhh , lily aku sayang kau bitch ! haha . masa dlm kereta , we all mcm perempuan gila tau . terjoget-joget mcm org tak betul haha . lagi-lagi lily , fuhhh hot siaa kalau dia dance . haihhh , BABE JOM PERGI CLUB DGN AKU NAK ? haha bodoh . tengah drive ni , dia boleh lepas stering kereta semata-mata nak joget ? haha cuba bayangkan kalau dia tak sempat cotrol ? ishhhh ! aku nak kahwin dohhh :DD gatalllllllllllllll . hee , we all ronggeng byk tempat . mula2 pergi aeon tebrau . kat situ je we all dah wasted so many times sebab tunggu kawan myspace lily grrrr . haha mcm mana lily ? EEE , 50% ! haha ayat siapa lah tu ek ? kahkah :DD jahat dohh aku ni . lepas tu minum kat banafe . pusing-pusing bandar JB . wahhh best gila ! happy sgt sgt . nanti kite buat lagi nak tak seha lily ? hehe . aku sayang kau dua orang ! XOXOXO ~

END OF CHAPTER ONE .

CHAPTER TWO : masa on the way balik rumah , aku ada cerita psl indera [my ex tu] dkt lily . after lily dah dengar semua cerita . dia bagi idea . dia suruh aku call lah si indera ni . mula-mula aku mcm takut sebab aku takut aku sedih if dia tak angkat aku call :( tapi aku beranikan diri kuat kan semangat lah jugak . cewahhhh ayat aku tak boleh belah ! haha . aku call lah , tunggu dia angkat . tut tut tut ...

indera : hello
aku : hello , you kat mana ?
indera : i dekat ss ni , you dekat mana ?
aku : i on the way balik taman molek ni
indera : hah ? you kat taman molek ? rumah siapa ? i pun duduk taman molek jugak
aku : i tau lah . you dgn siapa tu ?
indera : i dgn kawan-kawan i
aku : ohh , takpelah . you pergi je makan dulu
indera : okay , nanti i balik i call you okay ? kite jumpa
aku : [*dalam nada happy tapi cover :p] oh okay , bye
indera : okay , bye

tau tak aku teramat happy gila babi sampai nak termuntah ! hah ! aku terus menjerit mcm org gila meroyan dlm kereta .lily dgn seha ketawa je tengok aku mcm tu . haha . then bila dah sampai tmn molek . we all lepak rumah lily sebab mama lily takde . sementara tu aku tunggu lah indera call kan :) hee . tak sabar sampai nak terkencing yaw ! haha . tiba-tiba ade orang call . aku tengok caller id , guess who ? jeng jeng jeng ~ AWANG INDERA CALL ! haha . aku terlompat-lompat mcm monyet then aku baru angkat . dah berbual kejap dia bgtau dia dah kat rumah . aku pun hung up lah . bila dah sampai aku tanya mana gf ? dia jawab dia gaduh . gf merajuk . aku pun berbual . dia ckp rindu tak ? aku buat lah muka , aku ckp tak lah rindu sgt . tapi boleh tahan lah . haha ego nak mampus kan ? geram je aku ! haha ...

indera : sayang i lagi ?
aku : um , entah . tak tau nak ckp ape [*jantung aku punya lah dup dap dup dap]
indera : oh eh ? yela . sekarang dah lawa . mana nak kat i lagi kan ?
aku : yek eleh kau ! nak touching . aku tumbuk saja je :p haha
indera : yela . sekarang dah pandai nak tumbuk i
aku : [*middle finger] mengada lah you ni !
indera : ecehhh dah berani dah nak tunjuk buto kat i , hmmm
aku : alaa , main-main je kan . haihhh

*diam kejap , masing-masing tak tau nak ckp ape lagi

aku : um , you sihat ?
indera : you tengok i okay kan ? mcm ni lah i
aku : oh okay
indera : i rindu kat you . tapi i tersepit dgn gf i lah b

*ya ampun ! dia panggil aku b lah sial ! ish

aku : um , i pun . takpe . i phm jela . as long as you happy , i pun happy jugak okay
indera : sorry for everything okay
aku : eh , takde ape pun lah . i okay je ni :)
indera : would you be mine again ?
aku : [*happy sedih tapi tak tunjuk] ha ? gila kau ! taknak lah , hmm
indera : sebab ape ? you ada bf dah ?
aku : mana ada seh , you je yg i nak sekarang [*omg ! aku terlepas act ! aduhhh]
indera : ha ? ape you ckp ? :DD
aku : ape ? i ade salah ckp ke ?
indera : iloveyou syura
aku : [*mata berair]
indera : you tak ckp pun ?
aku : i nak balik , nanti ibu seha marah
indera : um , okay

aku salam dia . tiba-tiba dia tarik aku cium aku :'( aku cium dia balik . then whisper kat telinga dia ... I LOVE YOU TOO INDERA AND ALWAYS WILL BE . sedihnya hidup ni kan ? haihh . dia terus senyum :) aku pun jalan lah balik rumah dgn hati yg amat happy tapi sedih . mcm mana tu ? haha aku pun tak phm lah .

END OF CHAPTER TWO .

the only thing that i need to hear from him dah pun dia ckp . aku nak time machine so that , aku boleh balik semula time dgn dia dulu :( hmm , it's getting late lah . i have school tomorrow untill 3.45 pm . as usual lah kan , nama pun sekolah teknik . mengantuk sgt . goodnight .

stuck

lama dah tak update blog :) ahaha tah lah mcm takde mood nak tgok blog . blog ni kan tempat kita membebel about something yg kita rasa kita nak ckp or cerita . so skrg i do have something that i need to write . but sumpah tatawu nak start dari mana . blurrr doh . haihhhh , penat penat . hahah ayat ezzah nellysa <333

here i start people . on 19th jun 2009 i had been taken by mohd arif fahmy . i do happy that night . serious . then aku mulalah bercintan cintun dgn dia hahaha gatal kauuuuuu :p hee . mula2 aku rasa sygggggg sgt kat dia . sumpah . sbb aku rasa dia mcm cool je kan untuk budak underage yg couple ngn budak atas . haaa aku pun mula lah nak kena study balik mcm mana life ada bf . maklumlah , last ber-couple ni masa bulan feb . so mcm lama lah jugak kan ? hehe lama lah sgttttt :p then after berhari-hari aku jadik dia 'punya' aku mula rasa bosan . mana tak nyaa kan , call aku tapi berbual dgn kawan . sakitnya hati 1 lepas tu okayyy lah . dia bole pulak main pas2 phone . pehhhh aku mmg suka sgt org mcm tu . gerammmmmm so skrg ni , aku tatwu nak buat apa . penattt sgt nak lyn dia . bukan sbb aku ni heartbreaker tapi dia yg buat aku jadik mcm ni .

so skrg ni kwn2 aku sume suro aku break . tapi aku kesian . tak sampai hati aku :( hmm . arghhhhhhh ! mcm mana ni ?

:) :( npe aku hepy npe aku sedih ? yg hepynyaa preety boy tu mintak couple ! woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh aku mcm nak menjerit time call dia tu . tapi aku kena lah cover cun kan :p hehe if tak t dia ckp aku ni gelojoh hahahaahahahah :DD yg sedihnya pulak , dia lambat sikit je . aku terpaksa bgtau yg aku sudah pun berpunya . awwww how stupid i am ? suara dia terus sayu je :( kesian sgtttt . hmmmm oh god help me plss :'( i really don't know what to do .

gosh imy but i really mean what i say dude !

totally pissed off ! you make me trust in you but you break it . thanks dohhh ! you're a very good actor . you have win your grammy award don't you ? haaa funny ! we have a great time aite ? just forget all about it ~ i don't mind . ehkkkk ! i'm so pissing off right now ! you'll get it from me . just wait and see :) yet you so far but you'll always on my mind . bye . i miss you ALOT ! get it ?

preety boy :)

I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
Ive only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind

I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start

Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy
I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you

i'll be missing you johan baharom <333

aaa sedih dia dah tade :'( bila i tanya bila lagi bole jumpa ? dia jwb time raya . uwahhhh ! ta rase ke yg raya tu lama lagi ? kan kan ? haha . tu lah gila lah dia :) haihhh . yesterday i was fun meeting him . even skejap tapi bestttt :DD i like the way he treats me && dia ni suka tanya " you i handsome kan ? i hot kan ? " haha kelakar lah . i definitely said yes yes ! :) haihhh , masa yg kita spent yesterday night , will be part of my sweet memories . um . omg , i rasa mcm da lama knl dia padahal baru first time jumpa . haaa gila punya budak :p hmm , seriously i tatawu kenapa i sedih sgt . mmg lah bole jumpa lagi . tapi maybe takan sama mcm first time jumpa kan ? ta pun he'll forget all about me . ya ya , maybe . eventho dia ada promise yg dia takan lupakan i , tapi dia jauh kot . KUALA LUMPUR ! jauhkan ? hmm , i really hope that yg dia takan lupakan i . sumpah sedih dohh grrrr . geram lah ngn feelings i neh ! lebih2 pulak . bialah dia nak balik . um , last but not list . i suke chare dia :) gentle beb . ehem ehem . haha . hm , bye syg . gonna miss you :'( muahmuah <333

to johan : i suka lepak ngn u . sgt sgt , i dah lama ta rasa hepy mcm i lepak ngn u :) besttt sgt . um , do takecare of urself ok . nothing much to say , um . i'll be missing you so badly . bye bushuk syg haa :p

mohamad asyraf zainudin :'(

dia neh gila tw haha . act aku pun baru knl dia even 1 year aku 1 skola ngn dia :) haha . dulu dia suka nganjing2 aku kat skola tw ! malu aku grrr huhu . tapi dia baik lah . spe2 yg ta knl dia mesti ckp dia ni sombong coz dia neh handsome lps tu muka kerek gila haha um , awal bln 7 neh dia tade dah kat jb . further studies kat polytechnic melaka :( uwaaaa sedih dohh . haihh , tape lah . stay friends :) takecare yaww .

so long hairey :'(

next week hairey nak g dah :( sedihnyaaa . mesti dia lupakan aku kan ? haihhh , tape lah asalkan dia bahagia :) hee . he is such a nice guy act but most of the times he is acting like a jerk haha :pp sory hunn gemukk huhu . gonna miss all the sweet times with you . do takecare of yourself hunn . remember me ok ? sayang kau sgtttt :'( hmm . sedihh lah . maybe dia ta rasa kott apa yg aku rasa . tape i just want him to be happy . do takecare of yourself :)

dedicated by idris for me :)

I'm lost without you

At first we loved, but not again.
We met at the mall,
and we talked ever since.
We stood starring at each other,
I wondered the time, we'd
Stand together. Holding hands
as we walk down the street,
I wondered when our lips
Would meet.
My heart is broken, u seem
to ignore, The pain I
have, when u left me sore.
Our love was strong In which now your
heart is blind to see, now I feel
that your love has forgotten
completely about me.
Well all in all I'm heartbroken
Without u by my side,
I wish we could love each
other like we did that one time.

idris zainal sayang :)

he is such a nice guy . aku pun tatawu kenapa ta sume laki mcm dia . haihhhh , um tapi tape . ada kwn mcm dia pun dah cukup lah . hehe he is the very best listener when i'm in the pain . eventho dia lelaki . hee , dia selalu ada untuk aku bila time aku amat perlukan someone to talk to . act kan tatawu tw nak ckp apa lagi haha coz he is a guy with good attitude ! uwahhhh tekejutkan ? hee i love him thats all i want him to know :) hee syg , i will always be right beside you whenever you in needy situation bcoz i love you so badly . don't you ever leave me , i'll die without you cewahhhh haha . friends till death . aminnnn ~

ezzah nellysa , i love youuuuu <333

EZZAH NELLYSA . i love her so so much . dia kepala gila :pp she is veryyyy damn preety yaw ! grrr haha tapi dia sgt sgt baik . pna dulu aku jahat tapi dia still nak kwn ngn aku . dia still syg aku as always . kan ezzah ? :) haihhh , bila pk balik . aku menyesal buat dia dulu . sgt sgt menyesal . only god knows how regret i am :( tapi aku berjaya jadik 'orang' balik :) hee . thanks to her lah ! dia byk bg nasihat but sumtimes nasihat dia tu wenggg :pp hee sory babe . um , i just want her to know that i'm hepy for her rite now bcoz she's hepy with her old friends [FFL] and she's totally in love with nizam :) uwahhh isn't that sweet ? hee nothing much to say , just remember me . i heart you , you know that rite ? be mineee always . stay preety . last but not list i love youu sampai mampus :pp

here she is . my one and only ezzah nellysa :) be her friend if you like her , be her enemy if you wish it . tq .

HURIN FATIHIN BINTI HAMZAH ; ILYTD

she is totally mine . she will always be my biatch in whatever situation i'm in . phm kan ? :pp haha . um , ni nak ckp ni . EH DONT TALK NONSENSE LAH NGOK . i'm okay . ta pna kott terfikir nak marah u smpai nak mampus . omg , stop it lah . ily moreeeee ! we'll always be friends . no worries . i love you till death hurin . thanks cz being such a good friend eventho adalah setan2 ta suka tgok kite baik kan . but it's ok . i'm cool yawww :)) dah dah . stop say sory . um , ape maksud u kita menipu diri sendiri babe ? haihhh dala . now u dah ada bf yg bole jaga u . i neh hanya bole jaga u if bf u mintak tlg [ tapi aku ta knl sgt pun si akmal tu . mcm mana dia nak mintak tlg ? ] hahahahahaha :DDD yes yes ! i'm the old siti asyura but i'm still searching for my old cinta lah . cinta where are youu ? do comeback to me babe :( don't u ever leave me again . promise ? muahmuah . i love love love youuu LOVE ! <333

holiday at port dickson

now i'm on my way to port dickson :) yeayyy ! best kan ? weee holiday ngn family . lama dah ta g vaca mcm ni tw . dulu aku yg tanak ikut but now aku yg paling beriye nak ikut haha . people always change if they want to :DD uwahhh i do hepy with my life now . bahagia ja eventho bila pk2 balik i dont deserve all this cz aku lah yg paling byk buat dosa . haihhh dah dah ! aku mula lah tu nak merapu huu . lagi half an hour aku sampai kat GLORY BEACH RESORT , PD . hehe cant wait ! nak swimming lah . freaking hot rite now . skali aku kua ja dari pool trus jadik anak keling kan ? haha tanakkkkkkkkkk ;pp panasnyaaa even dlm kereta ada aircond . duhhh tu lah dosa bertimbun mana ta panas kan ? haha enough for now . nothing much to say takecare to all my besties :)

this is what we call 'about me' :)

name:
Siti asyura binti suparman

birthdate:
17th September 1992

birthplace:
HTAA, KUANTAN

Eye colour:
Dark brown I guess [:

Hair colour:
Black nearly brown. Huhu :DD

Tatoos:
Hell no lah !

Food:
Anything that makes me kenyang ofcoz.

Drink:
Ice lemon tea.

Number:
Um. Anything yg lucky :p haha.

colour:
Pink pink pink !

Alcohol Drink:
long long time ago [:

Pepsi or coke:
I like both but I prefer coke.

Mcdonalds or Burgerking:
Mc’D. nyum nyum ! hehe.

Chocolate or Vanilla:
Chocolate. Yummy !

Dog or Cat:
Meow meow ~

Hip Hop or Punk:
Hip hop laaa. Punk mengarut ja !

Summer or Winter:
Summer.

Bedtime:
Depends laa. Ta tentu. Huhu :)

Ever smoked or drank:
Yes yes yes !

What country do you want to visit:
paris babyyy :]

Believe in yourself:
Sometimes.

Want go to college:
Oneday. Insyallah. Amin ~

Do you sing:
Iyup ! redbox with family

Do you get along with your Parents:
Yes. I love ‘em !

Do you like Thunderstorms:
Not at all !

Do you want to get Married:
Wait till I found my true love. Cewahhh !

Cappuccino or Coffee:
Yucks !

Right Handed or Left Handed:
Right.

What do you want to be when you Grow Up:
A successful person && make ibu ayah proud [:

Soulmate:
I’M INTO BOYS :)

Favourite Eye Color:
Grey.

Favourite Hair Color:
Palm brown.

Short or Long Hair:
kinda long and curly. Hehe.

Height:
165

Weight:
51

Best Clothing Style:
Tah. Hembus ja laa. Asalkan lawa kot [:

Number of CDs I own:
Um, dunnoe. Sikit ja. Ibu yg bykk. Huu :]

what is the latest cd that you bought:
Twilight. i love you EDWARD CULLEN !

A P I Z

he is such a nice guy :) best kot kwn ngn dia haha dala hensem gila grrrr dia i klaka tw ! um , aduyy dunnoe what to say lah . speechless gitu :p hee um , dala dala . muahmuah <333

p/s : aku merepek :pp btw gambar dia tu HOT nak mampus ! tq :)

ex boyfriend ; imissyouu

his name is AWANG INDERA BIN MOHD NOR . yeahhh i miss him so badly . i wish he also miss me like i do . ok , we are officially break up on 8th Feb 2009 at 11.55 p.m . omg ! its nearly 12 a.m , what i mean is . um , if the clock strikes 12 . we will have our 3 month anniversary :( awww . i do miss all the sweet times with him eventho he might be the casanova as always :DD HAHA klaka kan ? huu , soryy b i kutuk u :pp act i have plenty of words to say about him but this is the only words that i can share with um um , with ? haha spe2 jaa :) loveyouu indera and always will be <333