stupid confession

i feel like killing myself right now ! i takde mood sgt . i don't know why . ibu ckp mayb effect period , but i don't think so . sebab kalau takde mood time period lain . now i rasa mcm takde mood sebab something else . i pun taktahu sebab apa . can anyone tell kenapa i takde mood sampai mcm ni ? i rasa mcm bercampur aduk sekarang ni tau . rasa mcm my heart kena cracked into a million pieces pun ada , mcm nak pukul org 'tu' pun ada , mcm nak menangis pun ada , mcm nak maki org pun ada . byk lah !

kenapa i tak boleh happy mcm org lain ek ? ada je benda nak jadi tau . sampai i dah taktahu nak buat apa lagi . i think , it has been fated for me kot . kan ? i rasa mmg sampai bila-bila i jadi mcm ni . nahhh , bkn i ni mengarut ke apa . tapi dah selalu sgt jadi dkt i ni . i bkn tak terima hakikat . i terima je sbb tu kerja kat 'atas tuu' i know :) i nak senyum pun takde mood . cerita lah kelakar mcm mana pun . i don't feel like laughing .

i'm very tired right now . mcm nak demam balik pun ada . sorry lah if my blog ni sgt membosankan . yeahhh , this is my lie people . tak kisah pun kalau nak ckp pape yg bodoh psl blog i . i get it :) boring kan ? i try nak senyum hari ni . but i can't , i just fake my smile so that takde lah muka ketat sgt . okay , i'm getting heavier right now and mula mengarut . i want my mood back ! but i can't find it ! ishhh ! so i better stop taip sbb i rasa mcm nak baling lappy . ok go !